Some days I walk to the gym, get to the front door, and go home instead
I write this on a Monday morning feeling refreshed and motivated, however the last fortnight has not gone entirely to plan in terms of fitness or health and I felt compelled to share this side of my fitness journey as well as the triumphs. Getting to your goals is not linear, you will have times where you don’t stick to the plan, but I am here to tell you that it is not the end of the world.
Right now I am being coached and I have guideline macros to stay within. Why? I felt like I lost my motivation for the gym after my summer getaways and I wasn’t really thinking about how I was treating my body so I wanted to get back to a more comfortable place for myself but also have a support system to fall back on when I have needed it.
How I am emotionally and mentally feeling plays a huge role in my motivation to be active which can be frustrating because physically I will have the energy and want to go, however if my mind is saying no, a lot of the time I will end up staying at home. Even more frustrating because I know that exercise is so good for your mental health.
Some days I can’t bear to wear my tight leggings because my reflection in the mirror is something I hate.
Sometimes I don’t want anyone to lay eyes on me.
Some days I would simply much prefer to be on my sofa watching Netflix and eating a bag of crisps.
Does this make me lazy? No. Does it make me a failure? Definitely not. It is far too easy to be extremely hard on yourself, especially in a world where social media shows individuals working out every single day and be seemingly motivated all of the time. However how much of what you see is actually true?
We all have a life outside of the gym, and this year for me especially I feel like I am constantly on the go. I try to plan that I workout 5 times a week however this just hasn’t been possible sometimes due to other commitments, working, being social and just not being in the right head space.
When I was growing up I was constantly told that I should just “do the best I can” and I still follow this mantra twenty years later. We are told to strive and be the best possible version of ourselves; but what if this is just too much pressure to be putting onto ourselves?
Some weeks I eat wholesome foods and do some amazing workouts; then in contrast some weeks I feel extremely anxious and only make it to the gym once or twice. What I have learnt over the years is to not force yourself to do something you just don’t want to do and do what you can.