24 Hours Living With Anxiety

November 22, 2017


My alarm goes off again after being snoozed a couple of times. Time to get up and get ready for a day at work. I really could do with an extra hour under the duvet due to bad dreams waking me a couple of times in the night but I have work to do. Depending on the content of the dream sometimes I can shake it off but other days the thoughts can continue to linger throughout the day.


Before leaving the flat I need to check that all lights are off like everyone does, but I go back and check again that I haven’t left the hob on and cause a fire, that chargers are turned off at the walls, that taps are tightly screwed so I don’t flood the place.


I am walking to work and the first worry of the day pops into my head – I hope there are no nasty emails waiting in my inbox for me. Being a catastrophiser means I tend to think of the worse case scenario and in this case that means an email telling me I’ve been fired or completely cocked up somehow. Rationalising with myself calms the worry but it doesn’t disappear until I have looked through all of my emails.


I have a difficult member of the public to deal with on the phone which immediately makes me anxious. Some days I can deal with this situation but some days it can be very hard. This is a big part of my job however so I am much better at dealing with this then I used to be.


My lunch break finally! I always go out for a wander to get some fresh air and time away from my desk. I work in the centre of my hometown which is great in some regards as there are so many shops at my fingertips, however it can get busy and sometimes I get anxious about who I may bump into or see. Plugging my headphones in and listening to podcasts really helps when I wander around as your mind is focused on listening to that instead of worrying.


I sent a text to a friend on my lunch break and I haven’t heard back from them yet. I get worried that I have annoyed them in some way. The rational part of me knows they are probably busy at work but the anxious part of me is convinced I have done something wrong.


I tend to experience physical symptoms of anxiety sporadically; and at the moment I get chest pains. They last around five or ten minutes and are incredibly uncomfortable. Luckily I recognise what is happening and I manage to stay calm; deep breathing helps ease the symptoms.


My working day has come to an end and I am on my way to the gym. Recently my relationship with the gym has been a little fraught so some days I feel anxious about working out and others I don’t. I can’t really pinpoint the cause of my anxiety but I dread getting into my workout gear. I know it will make me feel better but actually getting inside the doors is hard for me right now.


I am walking home from the gym and as predicted I feel happy I worked out. I now have a boost of energy for the evening ahead which will include showering, cleaning, cooking, blogging and watching some trash TV (my guilty pleasure!)


Generally my evenings at home is when I feel at my calmest and most relaxed. Belly full of food I start to get ready for bed but every night I get anxious about not getting enough sleep so I always aim to be in bed my 22:30 at the latest. It seems silly really and I know a lot of adults go to bed a lot later than me but I am convinced that if I don’t sleep enough I will sleep through my alarm the next morning and feel dreadful and sluggish.

Reflecting on this day it has been a pretty positive one, with no sudden bolts of fear firing through my chest or heart palpitations. Days like this make it easier to keep working on my anxiety, however on tough days it can be hard to be positive about recovery. I know I need to keep fighting so I will continue to do so!

Does any of this resonate with you as an anxiety sufferer? Let me know in the comments below.

12 responses to “24 Hours Living With Anxiety”

  1. Jess Athorn says:

    I can relate to all of those thoughts and would just like to say that you’re doing a great job of acknowledging and managing them in a healthy way, it can be so easy to let it all get out of hand and spiral but you’re doing the right thing!

    • wellnessandwander says:

      Thank you so much! It has taken me a lot of years to realise the severity of anxiety and am now getting the help I should have always had x

  2. I can totally relate this this. That bolt of fear that engulfs you head to toe is the actual worst. Also, I feel you on the double checking everything, going through that process before leaving the house just makes me more anxious (which is ridiculous) and then once I’m out, the thoughts of the place burning down (with my fur babies in it) or whatever, are very real… Meditation and yoga has really helped me but honestly it ebbs and flows… 🤷🏽‍♀️

    • wellnessandwander says:

      I try explaining that feeling to my boyfriend but I guess you never really understand until you experience it for yourself. It feels like it goes straight through my chest and knocks me sideways! Meditation and yoga helped me too, I just need to find more time to practice them x

  3. chloeluye says:

    This is such a good way of pin-pointing causes of anxiety when you’s not caught up in the moment, and then finding out how to reduce it. Thank you for sharing, I can definitely relate, especially dreading something but not knowing why, whilst also knowing that afterwards I will feel better.

    • wellnessandwander says:

      Dread is an emotion anxiety sufferers tend to feel a lot and it is so stressful! I am still trying to find a way to squash that feeling x

  4. sirvikalot says:

    Oh my goodness this is my life except I rarely ever actually get up early and at 7.30am I do take another hour or so under the covers.

    Also I’m jealous that if you’re anxious about going to the gym and still go you feel good afterwards. I get dark moods if I force myself so tend to just go home if I’m not feeling like it.

    Great post that will hopefully help to explain to non-anxiety sufferers what it’s like.

    V <3

    • wellnessandwander says:

      Everyone is different, if you can’t force yourself to go then by all means don’t, we all have those days. Right now getting outside and running is what I am enjoying so I haven’t really been into the gym much at all! x

  5. Someone on UK bloggers just recommended your blog to me and I’m glad glad they did! This post makes me feel a bit more normal. I don’t think people understand just how much can trigger anxiety, what they see as ‘little things adding up’ can actually be big things that happen on a daily basis. Sorry to hear you’re getting chest pains, I get those too and have to give myself a pep talk in the loos at work to get through them sometimes. I hope that writing this down helped you process some of the triggers and built up emotion.

    • wellnessandwander says:

      Oh wow how exciting! No I don’t think anyone who hasn’t experienced it personally would fully understand unfortunately, but we can try to break down the stigma still x

  6. It’s like you’ve jumped in my head and pulled out my exact day-to-day life! This is pretty much how an anxiety day goes for me, particularly at the moment (having a bad few weeks!) And the bolt of fear…yes! It’s so awful, especially when you don’t know where it’s come from. Thanks for writing this, it’s a great article 🙂

    • wellnessandwander says:

      I am glad you could relate to this is some way. I am glad I am not the only one who feels the dreaded ‘bolt’!

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