Hello! Today marks my 27th year on Earth and what a journey it has been. I am now in my late twenties (shit) which, I can’t lie, makes me feel too old for how I actually feel inside. Luckily for me I have a young face meaning I don’t really look it and I even got asked for ID at the petrol station for filling up my car a couple months back (thank you youthful genes!)
My early and mid-twenties were a rollercoaster to say the least with pressures and responsibilities nowadays so utterly different from being a fresher at university.
You have dreams and expectations of what your life will be at certain ages. For example I thought I would be married, owning a house and having a first baby at 28, but now I am nearing this age I realise I am not quite ready to do that just yet and that’s ok.
I have gone through my twenties feeling a pressure to be doing certain things at certain times but you just can’t have that amount of control over life which can be hard to get to grips with. My parents were married and living in a family home by my age, and I loved my childhood so much I wanted to copy what they did. I have friends who are single, friends who are married and friends with a couple of children. It can be hard to look around you to see so many others at the same age as you settled down living the family life, but now I fully believe it will happen when it should and when I am ready.
Looking back now I can say I used to be completely dependent on other people to make me feel good which is really sad. I had some bad relationships with awful men but I stayed in them because I didn’t want to be alone. These relationships definitely contributed to the deterioration of my mental health but ultimately they have shown me what I deserve and what I will not stand for. Right now I am in a great relationship and life is getting back on track for me. Onwards and upwards!
I have been so lucky to have such supportive parents who have applauded me every step of the way and given me a push when I’ve needed it. I also have a tight group of friends who I would trust my life with which is so special to me. It is definitely not about the quantity of friends but the quality. I honestly couldn’t tell you the last time I had a falling out with one of them was, if ever.
I have a different outlook on life then I did a year ago; I am much more positive and manage to quiet that anxiety voice that makes me worry about everything and anything. I am looking forward to see what the age of twenty seven will bring me and where i will end up this time next year!