I love December not only because it is my birthday and Christmas, but it is a time for reflection and in the words of Kylie Jenner – “realising stuff.” If you have read my blog since I started it in February or follow me on social media, especially Twitter, you will know this year has taken it’s toll emotionally and it has been a bit of a rollercoaster. Life doesn’t always go to plan but how you react to things that happen to you can change your circumstances. In January I decided to take my life back into my own hands and change some things for the better:
Admitting to needing help and finding it
You have heard it a hundred times before; that admitting you have a problem is the first step to helping yourself. However I always knew there was a problem, from the age of fifteen, but I had been let down by the NHS so I kept it inside. Events in January caused a relapse and it was at that point I realised I would need to take my mental health into my own hands. I was lucky enough to find a private counselor who gets me and gets my problems. Unfortunately I pay out of my own pocket in order to get better because of NHS failings, but I believe I was meant to find my counselor. Eleven months later and I am still having therapy, but it has completely changed my outlook and confidence.
Stop feeling so guilty
This is still an ongoing process for me as it is very ingrained into my personality, however I have always been a people pleaser and historically I have always put others before myself. So much so that it has affected my mental health but events in January really changed my outlook on life and I decided I needed to be stronger for my own sanity. Saying no to people is still hard for me, but it is a little easier than it once was.
Finding a passion in writing
I have always been creative and loved channeling it into activities such as photography, English literature and dance when I was younger. However as you get older and fall into the 9-5 work pattern your hobbies and passions can take a back seat. I started this blog in February 2017 when I needed somewhere to escape from the anxieties of everyday life, and it has turned out to be the best thing I could have done. Not only have the opportunities, events and people I have met been amazing, but I have found a passion for writing I didn’t really know existed. I can honestly say my blog has given me the confidence to reach out and submit articles to different online platforms which I would never have done before.
I stopped weighing myself
Since I started getting into fitness the scales would be in the back of my mind. As a teenager I always weighed myself and would freak out about the numbers I saw. So this year I vowed to just stop weighing myself altogether because it really doesn’t matter! Does it matter if I have put 2lbs on this week? No. There are so many reasons why the human body fluctuates in weight and blaming the ham and cheese panini I had for lunch yesterday isn’t the real reason at all. Being happy and confident in my body is so much more important to me now than what the scale tells me.
Learning to just stop sometimes
The trend of always being busy kind of hooked itself into my brain last year and I found myself exhausted and lacking motivation because of it. This year I have tried hard to realise when to stop and to take rest days when I need to. This has definitely benefited my mental health and my general wellbeing as I have more time to look after myself now. It is ok to spend time lying on the sofa watching Netflix if you want; the social media fantasy of running around like a headless chicken is not one to aspire to.
Have you made any positive changes this year? Let me know in the comments!